Greetings to all! My whole week is a total stress week for me. I studied quite hard but I still need to study more! And more! And more! Oh.. well that's nursing. This is very weird (Absolutely!) cuz I don't like books~ especially when your talking about memorizing and stuff... *vomit*. It makes me sick! I'd rather listen to a boring professor and understand the meanings, than memorize. I'm not so good in memorizations and I'm a very forgetful person! So I guess it's really not my thing. I really envy Yummy~, she had this great memory! And she's very good in memorizing! I hope she's reading this.. so that she could give me a little tip on memorization?. But you what!? This is really an amazing week! I memorize every detailed my cutee professor ask us to memorize!! (I must be sick!!!!) I'm not sure if his cute face has something to do with this?! >.< (what do you think?) I feel weird about that but oh well.. that's what 'inspirations' do. People can change you know.. hehe.. *shiver* I guess I'm in the mood? ohhh... hehe..

Speaking of in the mood, I changed my layout! I choose the anime Fruits Basket this time because I love YUKI~YUKI~YUKI!!!. Although the I don't like the ending in the manga as Kyo for Tohru! I still go for the cutee rat~Yuki. hehe.. I like to resemblance this blog like my real home and diary so I named it as SOHMA HOME!. It actually took me quite a while on what anime I will use. There are a lot of animes that I watch recently and I had the hard time choosing. I need to consider some things also, like finding proper images.. (which is the hardest thing actually) how to edit them.. etc. My first choice is really super Gals but then finding the right images and pics is a BIG QUEST! I couldn't find any! (NO Fair~). I hope someone who has a BIG HEART~ could help me? Particularly.. Aya and Rei pics? hehe.. Arigatou Gozaimasu!!!!

Anywayz.. I still had too much memorization to do and my cutee professor is mad at us! Yup! He really is! (waaaahh.. *roll over the floor*) There's this weird rumors in school among the students saying that he's a bad influence! (can you believe that?! ohh!!! If only I knew who started that rumor!!!) Now he's really mad and he's giving us hard quizzes (ESSay Quizzes!) with a really hard (medical term) questions! I hope his anger will lessen soon.. or else.. my grades will suffer!

And speaking of suffer.. I think the worst thing that ever happen this week is particularly.. leaving a clan that's been part of me. (Not GSG okay..) Those who know already understands. We need to grow and sometimes goodbyes needs to find it's way.

Quote for the day: "Goodbyes doesn't always means Farewell! Sometimes it means 'see you next time'.".

The past few days wasn't very nice for me. My problems with me and my family still remains unsolve. But still, that isn't enough reason for me to be depressed! Being down wont do anything good for me! So I chose to stay as is it! Anywayz.. I know myself more and there's nothing to be depressed for! Like what they say.. You can't please everybody... even your own family!

THere's a whole lot reason to be happy! My friends both in school and forums are there! (right?!) I don't want to dissapoint them! And of course my new phone! I need to be happy because my new phone finally came~! My N-series phone (N70)! I was waiting for it for quite a long time now! My new phone from my auntie in Germany! hehehe... now I have a new phone already! and I'm so happy about it! hehe.. I downloaded a lot of anime themes for my phone in MObile9 . Thanks to my sister who discover that site! So I'm plugging it now.. for those who want to download themes in your phone. (Nokia, Sony Ericson..) are available! (Depends on the unit!) Just click the URL. Anyways.. even though I have a new phone, I still treasure my old phone Nokia 7250i. I have used it for 3 straight years and I thank him (the phone) for staying with me! That phone already has a sentimental value for me and even though it's quite broken. I'll still treasure it! I was actually thinking of buying another sim for that! But I'm still not sure though.

Anywayz.. there's a whole lot of reasons for me to be happy because my grades are doing good so far. THis is just the prelims, but I'm still proud of myself doing good in my major subject. I guess like what Imouto (Natzumi) said.. "try to enjoy the subject" and of course my professor is really quite a good looking one! It's quite weird cuz this is actually the time I realize that he's very good looking after 2 months!? (as in cute xa!) and a has a good sense of humor too!. (he's very funny and very cute! indeed!) and of course SMART! He graduated cumlaude in Medicine. (4rgot the name of the school)! SO I can say that he really has an interesting background. I don't know if I'm sticking to Natzumi too much.. and now her addiction to her professor is beginning to come to me. But I don't care! I really like That professor of mine! Sorry but I wont say his name because he also likes to surf in the net too. HE might accidentally opened this site of mine and I dont want to experience the most embarassing moment! If he found out that his students like him! Weeehhh.. ~Yumi mode~ weeehhh...

Be happy~ everyone! THere's a whole lot of reason to be happy! Naks! :D

Quote for the day: "Be happy! There's a lot of reasons to!"

Konnichiwa! I guys I'm in a depression mode right now. I don't know what to say on how much sad I am at this point of my life. I had a little problem at home sorry about that.

Anywayz.. Just to say somethings that would make me feel a little better? Let me share you the 5 things I did in sad moments like this.

1. I usually pee every minute. Yes! I often go to the bathroom in sad moments to pee. I don't know why but it seem like I get some URINary Diseases when I'm depressed.

2. I like to play with some dolls in my room and like Urumi>Yummy~ I decapitated it's parts and trows them on the wall. (just to let my anger out!)

3. I play Guilty Gear, used MILLA RAGE and kills the enemy with NO MERCY.

4. I talk to my old friends on the phone and tell them how much I missed them. I tell them how I feel as much as possible. If they like to listen maybe I'll be better and if they're too busy.. I PANIC! (but I don't tell them I am panic!

5. LAstly. This is the worst thing! When I'm depressed, I wished I was dead. REally in depressions like this I wished I was never born after all. (although that's just what I said.. next day.. I know I'll be better.)

6. (this is only extra) Almost forgot! I cry.. cry and cry a lot! Till my eyes are sore! I somehow need to cry..

Depression, hopefully will soon fade away. I wanna get my old self back. I hope you dont think that's I'm getting crazy when I'm depressed. NO NO NO! My mind is completely fine! I just wanna let my anger out so I can be better tomorrow.

To want to link my friends who is always there for me when I'm depressed. Urumi>Yummy~ ,Freditachi, Luna , Kuros, and lastly Natsumi.

Quote for the day: "There is more to human than mets the eye!"- Optimus Prime!"

The never ending night duties isn't doing any good for my health. It's like my body is going down any minute now.. REally! My body is really giving up, yet I can't feel it though. It's like what they called "Inner stress". The doctor in the hospital told me that my immune system is really going down if I continue to stay in this night duties. But what can I do... I can't change the schedule given to me., I think my I'm immune to feelings like that since I experience that almost everyday. It actually scares me the fact that I can't feel the stress in my body.. ohhh.. I hope my body would hold on for at least 2 weeks more. hmmm..

I think the stress is more complicated especially when I told my mom about that! And can you imagine that she didn't believe me? (What the heck!) I was really furious when she said "Gagawa ka lang ng gastos!" I didn't ask for this! What is she trying to say.. that I'm just playing in the hospital like a cat! aaaahhhh this is too much! She always telling me that I'm such a pain for having high tuition and stuffs about payments (gastos) in Nursing. I can't blame her though.. but I didn't ask for it! I NEEDED IT! She shouldn't let me go to college after all if she'll kept on blaming it to me! My Dad seems to believe me.. though I never expected he would. HE's more understanding than mom. I think it's because he experience night duties before.

Ohh well.. I'm more stress now.. I hope I be okay..

I'll edit this later.. to tagged my friends.. Yummy, luna, kuya fred, martin

Quote for the day: Be careful!